Richie, reading the Christmas story to the boys at bedtime.

Dear Richie,

Today I went to the cemetery.

You were still asleep, the house was quiet, so I slipped on my running shoes.

I ran and I ran and I ran, and before I knew it, I was there.

The grass was beautiful, covered in dew, as the sun was just breaking it’s way over the horizon.

I sat there and had a good long cry.

I thought about where we were a year ago tonight . . . Blessing our fourth PERFECT son. Surrounded by family, laughter, and so much hope for the future.

It would only be days before we’d find ourselves walking long, lonely hallways in a Pediatric Intensive Care Unit, falling to our knees each moment in fervent prayer. So desperate to keep him with us.  So desperate not to say goodbye. So desperate for a miracle.

A year later, I see. . . through misty eyes. . . an entire tapestry of miracles. All woven together in faith, longing, sorrow and joy, into something so beautiful, so pure, so perfect, that I wouldn’t have it any other way.

We.are.surrounded.by.miracles. Aren’t we?

YOU Richie, are the most profound miracle of my life.

Thank you for being with me through this year. Thank you for wiping away my tears. Thank you for lifting me from the dust and inspiring me to carry on, not just to SURVIVE, but to move forward with JOY and determination. Thank you for helping us turn our tragedy into triumph.

I love you.

Merry CHRISTmas!

xx,

Me

Raleigh 12/11/2010

Cardon 12/11/2010

Lincoln 12/11/2010

Gavin 12/24/2009

Hi!

I’m here in Watercolor, FL, writing from the most beautiful house you’ve ever seen in even your wildest of imaginings!  We’re getting ready to kick things off for the Making Things Happen Intensive and Reunion!  Stay up to date with all the happenings of what’s sure to be an AMAZING weekend on the tumblr page here. Wonderful, exciting and inspiring things will be going on over on Tumblr all weekend long.  See you there!

Happy weekending!

xx!

Me

I was recently interviewed by Davina Fear for her Women in Business Series.  Check it out here. :)

Thanks Davina, it was an honor!

xx!

N

“Today will be joyus,
for the beauty slamming against my face
is unwilling to be ignored.”

Thank you for this Ajja.
It came at the perfect moment and spoke to the perfect corner of my soul.

I love you.

N

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I love the sky.

I think it is one of my most favoritest things God created for me to enjoy.