Do you know what you have given me?
New eyes, new hands, a whole new heart.
You have given me a whole.new.life.
You gave your very life that I might find my own, and I pray every day that you did not go in vain. I fight every day, that your legacy may live on forever in me. That somehow, I might continue what you started during your short and powerful jaunt to this mortal world. Though I know that I am not worthy of a scrap of who you are. Not worthy to be the mother to one so pure, so wise, so great. My humility in reference to you as my son? It knows no bounds.
Gavin, thank you for loving me. Thank you for teaching me. Your life, your death, has taught me more about the Atonement of Jesus Christ than 30 years of formal spiritual education. You have taken what was only conceptual, and you’ve sewn it’s reality, it’s pure and miraculous TRUTH and testimony, to the very walls of my soul, and there are no sufficient words of gratitude for a thing like that.
Never was there a love more fierce than ours; I love you with my every fiber. . .
I love you with my all.
One more thing. . .tonight, Baby B makes his way into this world. I hope that the two of you are friends and that you gave each other high fives and bear hugs before you said goodbye. Keep your eye on him for his momma and I. She’s a beautiful person; you would have loved her a lot.